but actually hearing a relative reason it away by saying babying me is necessary because good intentions, good intentions, good intentions. There is little intelligence in these good intentions that come from these people, and even less critical thinking. I am starting to think that when these relatives do sh*t like this, it is not good intentions anymore; it is more of an aggressive neglect.
There is an upcoming wedding in my family. I have been uninvited to this event, because I have begun to insist on not being babied anymore. The bride was one of those who babied me. In fact, it is as if she is defending the right to baby me, to talk down to me, to belittle me. She will not be able to emotionally blackmail me with an invitation to her wedding.
When someone, the bride of the wedding I am no longer invited to, who used to be closer to me, tells me that my life is easy, when it actually isn't, what does that mean? I find it to be hurtful, ignorant and wrong to have someone else dictate to me what my life is like. As if they think they know what it would be like to be to live my life for me, and would be able to do it better than me. What they do not understand is that there are rules to being on Persons With Disability and Canada Pension Plan Disability:
1. I have to fill out a stub every month, to make sure I get the money for next month. When I first got on PWD, I did not have to do this. For the first six or seven months, I did not have to do this. Now, it's different. It has to be done by a certain date, usually around the ninth of the month. I usually fill it out and submit it online, instead of going into the provincial office to stick it in their box, because it is convenient to be able to get it done in the evening, or when it's rainy, or when I'm in my pyjamas. What is inconvenient about it is that I can't do it right away, on the same day when I get my PWD for the month. I actually have to wait for my CPP-D to come in, so I can say, on my stub, how much my CPP-D was for that month. And both payouts happen on different days. This is also known as "claiming funds", which I have to do, or I will be causing myself some problems. Lucky me.
2. Due to me being on two different types of funding, I have two different earning exemptions. If recipients of PWD having to fill out stubs so they can STAY on PWD isn't common knowledge, the $1000 earning exemption is. The CPP-D earning exemption is $483, and yes, I Googled it.
3. For as long as I am on disability benefits, I will be at the mercy of politicians and their agendas to get and stay in power. Whatever law or regulation they decide to put forward, pass and enforce, I will have to submit to it. Drug tests for everyone on Income Assistance and Persons With Disability? I would have to do it. Cut my pension in half, or take it away entirely, thus forcing me to get a job that I hate, so I can feed myself? I would have to do this. I can follow all the rules to stay on it, but if some twit politician, who has never experienced first world poverty, decides that anyone with a diagnosis that puts them anywhere on the high functioning end of the Autism Spectrum does not deserve to receive PWD, then that would force me into taking the first job I can get, no matter what it is, or whether I hate it or how much.
