Thursday, March 7, 2013

Why I should never work nights

The last job I had, I was a night janitor, or maybe what I really was, was a custodial crew member? 
I worked at the local university, just 2 blocks from where I live.  Being able to walk to work was very attractive to me, as did working at the same university that I want to start going to this September(totally would not have qualified for free tuition, since I technically didn't work for the university).  I asked for part time hours, for some reason that I'm not aware of, I got full time.  At the end of the interview, the supervisor told me to fill out a form and bring it back on a specific day.  When I did, I found out that they expected me to work that same night.  I had no idea before that, since no one had told me.  In hindsight, maybe I should have asked in the interview, but how hard would it have been for the supervisor to have told me?  Especially since I hadn't gotten any sleep that day?  Because of this, I kept falling asleep standing up, something my poor trainer noticed, and found very annoying.  Eventually, I got the hang of sleeping during the day and working at night....sort of.  Working nights is hard; there are many good reasons why so many people can keep it up for only so long.
Every shift started with a meeting, where we would all sit in the cafeteria and listen to our supervisor and his assistant, talk to us about what was going on.  Most of the time, it was how this guy who worked for the university inspected our zones (certain buildings that we were supposed to clean. My team had five different buildings, one of which had five floors, and an elevator that broke down twice while I worked there. First time it was out for a week), or in other words, went around with a white glove and magnifying glass, looked for dust and if he found any dust, showed the supervisor and gave him hell. That must be why just about every shift that I worked there (from the first week of October, right after the Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, to the week before Christmas) started with what I think was meant to be an inspirational speech from our supervisor, but what everybody mistook for a guilt trip, because that's exactly what it sounded and felt like. Those speeches could be part of the reason why I felt like crying just about every shift, they could also be the reason why somebody quit or was fired about every other week. I know for sure that they're the reason why we were behind schedule almost every night of the week. They put us a good 10-30 minutes behind schedule, making all of us hate our supervisors a little bit more each night. The only good thing about them was the jokes that would get made by a few of the bolder people there (and of course were given dirty looks or were reprimanded). I hope this post made sense. It's late, and I'm tired. Should be in bed by now, but I really, really wanted to get this post done.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Unfortunately....

I can relate, or at least, I used to be able to, the man that this blogger is talking about.  Now, to some extent, I have given up putting on a mask while socializing, because the exhaustion that always came after was just too much.  My meltdowns have also decreased; I suppose there is a price that I'm paying for my decreased meltdowns....which I guess is just that people just don't talk to me as long as they used to when I actually do go out and socialize.  Of course, these same people that might have appreciated my charm and wit when I bothered to use it, and might still today, don't know what kind of sacrifice I was making then, and what kind I would be making now, if I do dust it off and use it.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

How to get on disability

I don't know this because I am on disability, but because I have tried to get on it and failed....twice.  I am wondering if some members of my family and friends know just what it takes to get a disability pension.  I think that there are a few that really have no idea what it takes to even be eligible to even apply....that all I would have to do is write my name, address and answer some questions on some form that says "Government of British Columbia" in the top left hand corner, mail it in to some office, then a week later I get a check, and every month after that, until I find something better to do with myself than wait for my monthly $906.  That is so NOT how it works.  Getting a disability pension is actually a process that can take up to a year or more.  That year consists of applying, waiting, being denied, appealing, than some more waiting.  The steps go something like this:
1. Apply for and get on income assistance.
To get on income assistance, you must be broke. As in, so broke you can't rub two dimes together.  You also can't be in any type of postsecondary program.  As far as the clerks and whoever else is concerned, this is rule number one; college students and anyone in any kind of educational program can NOT be on income assistance.  The same rule applies to those who happen to have some money squirreled away somewhere, even if it would be gone in just a few months or even weeks.  Even if it would be gone in the amount of time it takes for them to process your application (about six weeks), you're still not eligible.  To be eligible for the $610 that those on income assistance get, you have to be minus dollars, with no income.  If you apply for disability and you're not on income assistance, you get your application back, saying that it couldn't be processed, because you're not on their radar.
2. Apply for disability
The first step in doing this is going to your doctor and getting him/her to fill out a form.  The two times I did it, it was painful.  Anyone listening in on that interview would think that I'm just trying to find a way to easy street, because there is nothing physically wrong with me.  All of my issues are mental; my anxiety and my Asperger's.  After that, you have to have countless meetings with a social worker, to make the application as targeted as possible.  This could take weeks, or even months to do.
So there you go.  The long process of getting on provincial disability, at least as far as I know.  There could very well be more to the process (I think that there might be) but this is as far as I have gotten.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Just plain dangerous and wrong

Perhaps the worst part about having Asperger's Syndrome is that so many people assume, dangerously and wrongly, is that I have so many resources that I can access. And they. start. to. envy. ME.  What are the words that I am supposed to use to convince them that they are wrong?