Just talking to myself, I guess....

I'm guessing that I can assume that nobody took me up on my challenge to find anybody with Aspergers who is on disability funding.  Not that I can really blame my family and friends for not taking it up, except for the fact that it was my family that started this whole thing in the first place, specifically my mother.  Not saying that the reason she started this was for some reason other than getting me "launched", but I am saying that she was looking in the wrong area for the resources that would help with that.  I have a better chance of winning the lottery and getting struck by lightning....TWICE....on the same day, than of ever getting a disability pension.  And it's not just me; this is a reality for many other aspies.  Many adult aspies are too old to access the resources that are there for aspies.  Seems like for all the other resources, we are just not autistic ENOUGH.  I haven't got a clue how to solve this problem, and I don't know who to blame, or even if anyone deserves to be blamed.  One thing that I do know, is that I must move on from this.  I have to somehow get myself into some aspie friendly profession, where eccentricity is allowed, reading social cues isn't all that important, and everything  doesn't all go to hell in a handbasket if I have a meltdown or four.

You know that story, or maybe it's a proverb....

about four, maybe five men, who were blindfolded, taken to an elephant, and asked to say what elephants are like, just from feeling different parts of its body, without ever having seen an elephant? I think autism is like the elephant.  Most people, upon finding out that I have Asperger's, do not believe me, because I'm no Kim Peek.  Odd that Peek's movie self was autistic, since Peek himself wasn't.  Anyways, I just wanted to say that Autism is like an elephant, having many sides.  It can be long and flexible, like the trunk, it can be thick and solid like one of its legs, or it can be curvy and high, like the side of the animal.  It can even be skinny, with hair at one end, like the tail, or thin and droopy, like the ears.

If you're going to tell me that I can and should get disability benefits....

by just claiming my Asperger's Syndrome, and even go so far as telling me that it would be stupid for me not to, than you're going to have to do something for me.  Provide me with evidence of someone with Asperger's Syndrome who is already getting disability benefits.  My requirements are only that this person must be living in Canada(I don't care where), he/she must actually have AS, NOT classic autism; they must also be able to speak in full sentences, and able to walk in a straight line; they must also be at or over 25 years of age.  I am making this challenge because I have just about had it with hearing, again and again, that I can and should get disability benefits, and that I am irresponsible for not trying, when the truth is, that I have tried, under pressure from my parents, more than once...I've tried three times, actually.  Each time, I've either been denied, or I've fallen through one of the many, many cracks that exist to screen out the scammers....except I'm no scammer.  Oh yeah, and I just found out that lots of other people, with Asperger's Syndrome, who are around my age and older, also have trouble getting help.  So really, my reality is, that even though I have trouble finding a job that I can actually DO, let alone support myself with, I still cannot get any kind of financial assistance or benefits.

Just because.

Killing time right now, so I thought I would post a link to this site that I kind of like.  A teacher told me about it, so I thought that I would pass it on.

A tip.....

if you are trying to sell somebody, anybody, on anything, particularly religion, and this person says that they're not interested, don't wait for a week or so and then rephrase what you said the first time, or say something like "We believe...." when said person already knows.  You not coming off as a concerned friend. You're coming off as a windbag and a bully.

Been busy

So it's been over a month since the last time I posted on here.  I've been busy, at least, busy for me.  The two classes that I've been taking, homework and assignments from both, and my part time job kinda take up a lot of my time.  During the last month, though, I have found that I have my best ideas for posts when I am nowhere near a computer or even a pen and paper.  When I'm on the bus, for example.  Or when I'm working.  I can make sure that there's a pad of paper in my bag where I can get at it easily so I can quickly write down my ideas that I get when I'm taking the bus somewhere.  While I'm working that's not so doable, since my work is that of a server in a coffee shop.  It's not like I can just stop in the middle of taking bacon and eggs to somebody, and quickly jot down a sentence or two.

Changing the conversation: assuming anyone is listening

I suppose that many don't realize, and wouldn't admit to it if they did, but this video is pretty realistic about how autism is seen by parents of children who have it; a big, bad horrible thing that must be vanquished.  When really, the autism is not the problem.  How the parents see it is.